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On Superheroes
Monday, January 19, 2009
I was blog-hopping (Don't ask why, I know projects are amounting but it's my form of stress relieving so shut up) and I figured how majority of girls are in total control of their relationship. I whudn't say Queen Control, but they seem to be one usually bursting their top, screaming at the top of their lungs or shooting vulgarities like no one's business. Then, I realised how little control I have over my relationship and how much I'm loving it to bits and pieces. Honestly, I'm very afraid of my boyfriend. Okay, so afraid isn't the perfect word. Respect. Because I've been brought up in a home where guys have all the authorities and rights over a girl, I adapt and live with it so well. I seldom, probably once every blue moon, gets angry at Zaini. And on occasions that I do get angry, I'd just end up getting scolded for raising my voice at him. I hardly get moodswings (Lucky me) And the best part, I don't mind being the timid one. I don't mind having to be the one giving in all the time. I don't mind having to be the one crying staring down at the floor. In fact, I love saying sorry for something that's not even my fault in the first place. My boyfriend's perfect. He takes super good care of me. And I'm not even supposed to have a conversation that last for 10 minutes with guy strangers. Guess what ? I love all these tight rules he gives me, every single one of it. I have to be home by 9PM, man I love it HAHAHA I think I'm beginning to sound damn lame who cares. I love calling him at 3am to sob and sob cause I think Boogeyman's hiding in the closet and I don't care if you think I've got no life living under my boyfriend's armpits (literally :D) & yeah, Ernie said I'm pathetic. When I'm sad, it's cause of Zaini. When I'm happy, it's cause of Zaini. When I'm hurt, it's cause of Zaini. Well, who cares. I'm so dependent on my Boyfriend and I L O V E IT ! (SPELL IT OUT) ) With love, Nur Edlin Effendi at 12:07 AM
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