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The most amazing 7 year old on Earth
Thursday, April 9, 2009
 Yknow, sometimes I choose to believe Siti's the only one who truly understands me. I know how pathetic this sounds, I must be kidding blabbing about how a 7 year old is actually the one truly person who understands me. This lame 17 year old overgrown girl HAH. I was drowning my pillow for at close to an hour reflecting on how much Siti actually cares about me and I, on the other hand, am sucha a selfish self-obsessed ungrateful sister. Now, don't get me all teary again. I wake her up so early every morning to torment her and make her life a living nightmare. Everyday. I'd make her read so many books and almost suffocate her super tiny brain with insane spelling words. And I'd scream and wail and yell until she ace it. And for all those times, I don't feel good not even a second doing it. I think I overdid it this time (today) She was down with a bad stomache ache. I was feeding her rice and I think I put too much gravy (I'm not quite sure why the tummy upset, really) But I helped her scrub Vicks on her tummy and at the same time testing re-testing re-retesting re-re-retesting her spelling cause she needed to get a 10/10 4 times consecutively (Which she did) THE 7 YEAR OLD GIRL WAS HAVING A STOMACH ACHE DAMMIT AND I WAS BUSY MAKING SURE SHE MEMORISED HER WORDS RATHER THAN TO MAKE HER FEEL ALRIGHT. The other sister (the fucking lazy one) promised to send her only to go back on her words. AND THAT GOT ME INFURIATING. I started yelling, banging the door, throwing her uniform at her face and even attempted to not let her bring her water bottle (WTF WHY ? IDK) And I left her, I just went out of the house with her bags and ... LEFT HER. She got ready, put on her uniform and came down, with the house key and sobbing SHE CAME DOWN HERSELF WITH THE DOORS LOCKED. And still, she attempted to hold my hands while walking to school. With no pinch of hatred or anger towards me, HELLO MEET THE ROYAL BITCH. And then I started tearing, it was clouding my vision but I pretended to look in the sky and what shit to prevent the tears from falling. I'm sucha mega loser OMG. At the gates, I gave her a light gentle kiss and whispered sorry. AND I MADE HER CRY. THIS 7 YEAR OLD WAS CRYING CAUSE I SAID SORRY AND SHE KNEW I WAS SINCERE. and you know what she said ? Siti : I love you laa kak olin. Later let me call you okay ? And she started crying and everyone was looking and I hugged her so very tight and I secretly wished, that I was never born, that I was dead :'( I LOVE YOU, SITI MARYAM With love, Nur Edlin Effendi at 1:55 PM
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