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& it'll steal all your innocence
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
  Imma wallow myself in self pity because everyone's asleep and reflect on things I should not have done but have and things I should have done but didn't. I hate how my sentences will run so long everytime I start thinking too much. No, I'm not sad. I just think it's the(my) time of the year where you take time to do some self-reflecton and try your best to undo the bad. Which, most of the time, you can't. I really wanted to end this post happy. I am happy, I know this. The reason I'm like this is because I'm happy. Everyone's pleasing me but I'm pleasing nobody. People have to stop being nice to me. Zaini has to stop pampering me all the time. Papa has to stop giving me all the money. Mama has to learn to scold me sometimes. Ernie should stop always looking out for me. Siti should stop being so generous with her hugs and kisses. My friends should stop letting me blatantly speak my mind all the time. I'm selfish. I've been a very very selfish girl. I hate being selfish. I want to die and go to heaven. I hope heaven wants me. Hello. My name is Nur Edlin Effendi & I'm on a mission. I'm on a mission to start giving Love and not just keep taking Love. Please, will you help me :'( With love, Nur Edlin Effendi at 12:23 AM
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